teeforlove [they/them]

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Cake day: September 8th, 2023

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  • The world was peaceful when I was a child because I didn’t know what the world outside really was, the world to me back then was just my home, yet it wasn’t really peaceful, it was hell because of fighting, alcoholism, the usual trauma a child faces.

    The world as I see it now is a shithole, but precisely due to it being a shithole did I discover how to really love, and do it correctly. Love people, love animals, love nature. You can relate this to how the dictatorship of the bourgeoisie and its efforts to maintain the status quo precisely due to its contradictions gives the proletariat everything necessary to fight. But I’m isolated right now, I don’t really have anyone here, but I have more than enough love that is going empty due to not that many people being there to give it to, which I think of as a contradiction.

    Marx says how you can’t liberate others without liberating yourself, or at least I think he was the one who said it, but I see it as a contradiction with what I say here, that you can’t liberate yourself without liberating others. The solution here precisely lies in the act of liberation. You don’t liberate others necessarily during dialogue, during educating yourself through everyone, neither do you necessarily liberate others during this long, tiring process of waging a war. But people liberate each other. I think I got this from Pedagogy of the Oppressed by Paulo Freire, which I recently finished. I see its influence on the words I typed out in the post just as I’m typing this right now lol, its a really good work that talks about education through dialogue, criticizing the banking mode of education (used in college, schools, etc) as preserving the status quo. He uses examples from Mao’s cultural revolution to say that cultural action is a process of education that has to start before, and not after taking power. I can’t describe everything ofcourse, its a short read, around 150 pages and I’ll recommend it.

    I think I lost track there and switched topics, anyways, that’s about it, hope I was able to explain why I wrote that. I just write things and finish it off whenever I’m not in a particularly good mood. I think you should understand it for yourself too, instead of relying on my explanation. Your subjective perspectives of a work (or anything) also matters as much as that of the creator.

    Anyways, have a good day!



  • this is mostly related to what is brought up in Origin of Family. Class society was historically progressive due to the evolution in generalized commodity production, however, it also brought about a contradiction of private accumulation. I bring up this being related because primitive societies lived as a community with a matrilineal framework, and the contradiction of private accumulation (origin of private property), coincides with the first class division, that between man and woman, which starts the eventual alienation of the working class from their labour, from others, and effectively from themselves.

    “In an old unpublished manuscript written by Marx and myself in 1846 I find the words: “The first division of labour is that between man and woman for the propagation of children.” And today I can add: The first class antagonism that appears in history coincides with the development of the antagonism between man and woman in monogamous marriage, and the first class oppression coincides with that of the female sex by the male. Monogamous marriage was a great historical step forward; nevertheless, together with slavery and private wealth, it opened the epoch that has lasted until today in which every step forward is also relatively a step backward, in which prosperity and development for some is won through the misery and frustration of others.”
















  • deleted my matrix account and lemmygrad account on a fit of breakdown, it is hard carrying yourself forward every single second, and every 100 seconds I start tearing up. I go to uni, attend 2 hour classes everyday, eat, buy food for the night, come back. I sometimes game, its CS2, which means its a comfort game, which I’ve been playing since 2017, but I don’t have fun, because again, I’m all by myself. It is sometimes fun hearing the voice chat in casual and people are shitposting, or when a person does something funny in game while trying to clutch. Wish I was a part of that though, something more than just my own individual presence. I think I’m going back to 2019 again, where I was confused and alone, trying to deal with shit I did in childhood and adolescence that I couldn’t bring myself to forgive. It’s like Marx said, first as tragedy, then as a farce. I struggle going to social events, I think everyone I’ve managed to hold up a conversation to now hates me. the queer club is pretty apolitical, which sucks. Dm’ing people and then moving on to hanging out irl is what suits best for me, I’ve tried doing that with that club, but sadly resulted in no replies or ultimately me getting ghosted. I wish there was an ounce of spark I could see in others irl, who want to talk to me. I refuse therapy and medicines, I can’t deal with support anymore that relies on the very superstructure that is directly affecting my material reality. My partners are separated between two countries in the imperial core, and it is really hard dealing with the individual loneliness/suicidality, and the collective part of getting depressed about the shit that goes on everywhere.

    take care of yourself though, you’re doing a great job, and I’m proud of you. I believe in you. Sending love <3