Idr where I heard this quote but your story reminded me of it and I’m paraphrasing cus my memory is fuzzy

“Does it ever get easier? Taking a life?” “The day I’m no longer bothered by it is the day the next life I take is my own”

The reason that sticks with me is I’m pretty passive, but the lengths I’d go to to protect those close to me defiantly don’t sound enjoyable :(